Desires, Relations & Expectations

I was in shanti express, exhausted and tired mentally, for the reasons on which I have no controlJ. All of a sudden I decided to call Monaliza, friend of Nalinee to inform me about the timings of prayer in church as I was longing to visit church...Wait I am no theist but still I wanted to see people’s faith in so called GOD J. Whenever I plan to go home, I always have lot of task on my hand and I can visualize them all, and if at all things go even an inch wrong, I just can’t hold on: P. Well, finally I reached home after lot of happenings on my way both in train as well as bus.

I always think, happiness and sorrow (Parts of Network) are indispensable in life (NETWORK) but the latter stays a little longer unfortunately. I have Vodafone now and so wherever I go, NETWORK followsJ. Nowadays, there is no single place where I can hide myself from this NETWORK. I know, it’s a mindset and it will be changed after sometime but how long will I have to wait? I was happy since I was going to attend Chintan’s wedding but I knew one thing for sure that I will not be able to handle few things which always keeps me on my toe :p. I just hate to attend weddings and social functions because of the fake smile one has to keep, unwelcomed welcomes & feelings but still I become helpless and I have to become a part of this social drama with a lot of uncomforting feeling.

I was lucky; I got a call from Monaliza that there is a wedding in church in sector-8 and it will be great if I would attend a wedding instead of a prayer. I changed my schedule a bit (I hate to do it for people but I can do it for myself anytime) and went over to Mona’s place after a quick visit to Chintan’s home. We got ready and started on our way to Church. My heart was full of excitement since I was on my way to fulfill one of my wishes: P. Arpita and Steven were getting married and I was an uninvited guest :P I don’t care for these kind of formalities :D. I entered the church and I felt like I was in another world. Simply amazingJ. Normally I can’t live without 2 things 1) My Mobile 2) My DigiCam. I had the cam with me and I was clicking it like anything but after some time I realized that people were looking at me strangely so I had to stop it: P. I was waiting for the moment, I have seen in movies “Now, You can kiss your bride” but Mona told me that, it never happens in Gujarat L. It was thrilling to watch the bride and groom in the traditional wedding dress. Finally I fulfilled my wish to attend some function or prayer in churchJ. After the wedding I made a move on my bike, going to places to complete few tasks and finally reached home. All plans were ready for the decoration of 1st night of Chintan but still the venue was uncertain and we were running everywhere for the same: D I went to GHUNGHAT hotel as planned earlier in the day for the dinner with Mr. & Mrs. Navrang, Mr. & Mrs. Dharmesh & Bhumi. I visited Honeymoon suite there, and I was impressed with the decoration but it was a little over budget for the groom. We did lot of masti and pranks there but as usual I was alone in the crowdK. I miss my usual self which blasts in such kind of situation. I hate when I find the differenceL. Next day was the wedding day. All drama was happening around me, some people wanted to gain attention and so they were doing all dirty stuffs in public and I was like what the hell: P. We were on the way to bride’s home, “Band Baja” was arranged just for me :p and so I had to dance. I gave my best shot and enjoyed with Vijay, Dipika, Girl in Pink & her mother: D. Lots of eyebrows were raised & so I pulled myself back to keep myself away from involving in rumors. Then I was busy in field work of wedding and soon “PAPAD PURAN” started L. We were given 100 Rs. To use papad in the decoration but I was not convinced and I decided not to implement that but I knew I would be facing some problems. The person who gave the “ORDER” was behaving like boss and thus we were not interested in listening to him but he was an important person in their family so we had to bear with him since we had no other option :P He was spying around now & then for that matter and we just lied for the PAPADs :D but truth came out but we ran away and he failed to catch us. Somehow I managed attending the wedding, visited Indroda park, reception & decoration on a single day.

On Monday I decided to visit my college, Nirma. Once I decide to do something, I do it and that is for sure; whatever may come. I entered in the premises of Nirma and I felt back home again. All memories, faces flodded my mind and I was desperate to see my classrooms & labs. I went to canteen and felt the heaven like environment. I met Niharika madam who sits @ counter. I told her to give me a coupon for VADAPAU & MANGO DOLLY :D. I was expecting her to say something on that order but then I thought how could she remember things which I used to do? But for my expected surprise she told me, “Your menu hasn’t changed”. I was like YES she still remember what I used to do. It was a “KODAK moment” for me J I was delighted and the corner of my eyes got wet. It was something that always gives me immense happiness because that’s what I do with others and I hardly get it back. Expectations are part of “GOOD” relations. People always say, “Expectations hurt, never expect from anybody” but for me that’s the base of any relation. Where there are no expectations, there is no relation and I firmly believe it and I don’t need any proof for that. I went to B212-A, B212-B (classrooms), 104, 106, 201(labs). I was lucky again because Desai sir was in Nirma. I saw his car “Quency” in parking. Soniya madam, Preeti madam, Souren sir, Desai Sir, Kuntal Sir were in the final presentation and I was wondering, how will I meet them? But I knew one thing(intuition), if desai sir would see me around then he would surely call me and that’s what happened: D. My intuitions are extremely powerful and till now all went right unfortunately J. I have full faith in my sixth sense and I believe it blindly and they have never shocked me. Sometimes I lie to friends about some intuitions which are related to “me” but for me, I have clear things in my mind. I normally judge people on my intuitions and till now it has been working terribly well in negative manner. People (My friends, family, relatives) rate me a child, dumb & innocent (may be) on action I perform or things I do but the truth is something else. I know everything, I hide those things just to keep myself as ignorant so I can keep myself away from fake things but believe me you can’t fool me :D I ignore lot of things but it doesn’t mean I forget those things. It’s there in my heart & not in my mind because memory can be lost but not the heartbeats and once heartbeats are lost; nothing else is requiredJ. That’s why “Events of the past are always present” in my heart and unfortunately past always hurts: P